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woke up from a dream
with all the things I was afraid to say
wondering how I managed
to use up all of my rainy days
reading into nothing in particular
can make me crazed
all my inhibitions have me drowning
in my soul’s malaise
this is it
don’t get scared now
trying to remember how it felt
to be alive again
dying to believe I could ever
let the living in
tell me what you did when you
discovered you could disappear
anything can happen when the
color of the air is clear
this is it
don’t get scared now
living off the trials and tribulations
of a broken heart
when will I remember that I’m whole
with just a broken part
looking in the mirror is as hard
as it has ever been
staring down the enemy
when all I really need’s a friend
this is it
don’t get scared now
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2. |
Thousand Miles
04:37
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he wakes up to another bed
with another’s stories to fill his head
and he wonders if darkness is a mirror
‘cause language says just what language wants
and the darkness begs with its darkest charms
and the morning is cool and clear
it’s a wonder that I’m here
he’s got wings of steel
and a heart of fire
he’s got time to think now
it makes him tired
he’s got time to see himself again
and the Berlin wall runs
right through his dreams
‘cause he touched it once
at its broken seams
couldn’t keep him out or keep him in
it’s a wonder to just begin
a thousand miles now
closing in
he’s got stories written of coming home
he’s got stories written that aren’t his own
he’s got everything he used to need
but it’s back to work and it’s back to back
and he won’t need Monday to tell him that
but the page is slow to turn
he fears the speed
it’s a wonder that I bleed
a thousand miles now
left to grieve
he wakes up to the same old bed
with the same old stories to fill his head
couldn’t keep him out or keep him back
he’s got wings of steel and a heart of fire
there’s no time to think now
it makes him tired
there’s no time to see himself like that
it’s a wonder that I’m sad
a thousand miles now
to coming back
it’s a wonder that I’m sad
a thousand miles now
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3. |
Ode to England
02:57
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I’ve made a lot of motion
I do a lot of things
my baby crossed an ocean
I miss his company
I’ve got a lot to think on
what am I doing here
and could I do it better
or else just disappear
I miss Barack Obama
I miss the way it was
to have a president
I looked upon with grace and love
you never see it coming
you never see it clear
but it was really something
and now it’s really here
I’ve got a little while
I’ve got the time I need
I’ve got the stitches ready
in case I start to bleed
they say the pen is mighty
I say the pen is truth
it keeps me honest and alive
no matter what I do
I really hit the jackpot
I really struck the gold
born a white girl
with a healthy chance of growing old
but if I leave the country
I’ll see a sinking ship
I haven’t done enough to fight
and I’m ashamed of it
I make a lot of motion
I do a lot of things
my baby crossed an ocean
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4. |
The Littlest Lion
03:59
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the littlest lion
is coming to wake me up
not afraid of the crying
she’s coming to shake me up
the littlest secret
is making a real big deal
I’m trying to keep it
‘cause what if the truth’s not real
what if I can’t go home
what if I’m just a rolling stone
growing afraid of how I’ve grown
I’m hoping you miss me
I’m hoping you see me strong
there’s a light in the history
I’m careful to leave it on
‘cause what if we can’t go home
how do we stop these rolling stones
how do we fix these broken bones
it’s making a difference
questioning everything
I’m going the distance
even a lost bird sings
what if I can’t go home
what if I’m just a wishing stone
going wherever I’ve been thrown
just going wherever I’ve been thrown
the littlest lion
is mighty and brave and good
she’s small but she’s trying
to do what a big lion would
the littlest lion
is coming to wake me up
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5. |
Little America
04:53
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I was hoping I’d fallen from grace
with the earth rushing hard at my face
there’s so much I’ve tried to erase
it’s just a little america
a little bit anxious
a little bit restless
a little bit thankless
a little bit reckless
when everything falls away
I fall away
I tried hard to let it all go
but I cling to my secrets
I’ve shown everything I meant to show
it’s the truth that defeats us
I was running from everything else
I’m just a little america
a little bit anxious
a little bit restless
a little bit thankless
a little bit reckless
when everything falls away
I fall away
if I follow you’re not alone
if I lead I will lead you home
to a bed in the undertone
if I take what I mean to give
if I tell you the things I did
if I die when I mean to live
it’s just a little america
a little bit anxious
a little bit restless
a little bit thankless
a little bit reckless
when everything falls away
it’s just a little america
a little bit anxious
a little bit thoughtless
a little bit thankless
a little bit reckless
when everything falls
and I’m tearing my heart
from the cracks in the walls
I’m a little america
a little bit empty
from holding my breath
and the notes that you sent me
I’m writing my letters
I’m singing for rain
and I hope you can hear me now
I hope you can hear me now
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Abraham
04:48
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I was raised in Illinois
life in the north
made me a poor boy
and I grew up
and when I did
they made me king
tied at the end
of a thousand strings
and I grew up
when I do good I feel good
when I do bad I feel bad
that’s my religion
there was a war
I made it so
to fight for freedoms
that everyone should know
and I grew up
I was hated by many men
they couldn’t see it
but I fought for them
and I grew up
yeah I grew up
when I want to go back home
I close my eyes to feel the sun
and when I want to stop and rest
I know I’m not the only one
there was a man thought I should die
could say I blame him but I never lie
when I do good I feel good
when I do bad I feel bad
yeah when I do good I feel good
when I do bad I feel bad
that’s my religion
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7. |
Leaving Old Town
03:12
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I’m leaving old town
I’m leaving everything
won’t let the sun shine
won’t let the birds sing
I’ve got a bright star
I’ve got an offering
I’m leaving old town
I’m leaving home again
I can’t remember
how it’s all supposed to end
I’ll be a big girl
I’ll be a better friend
I made a big deal
out of a little time
I’ve had to let go
of everything that wasn’t mine
I’ve got a big dream
I’ve got a reason why
I’m leaving old town
It’s all that I can see
I want to laugh loud
when I look back at me
I want the magic
I want the fantasy
I made a big deal
out of a little time
I’ve had to let go
of everything that wasn’t mine
I’ve got a big dream
I’ve got a reason why
and if I die here
what would I think of that
would I just lie here
wishing I could go on back
I’ll climb the branches
to where the sky is at
I made a big deal
out of a little time
I’ve had to let go
of everything that wasn’t mine
I’ve got a big dream
I’ve got a reason why
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8. |
What is a Grown-Up
03:37
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it comes in the front door
it’s quiet at night
and if you are sleeping
it will leave out the light
it’ll crawl in close
and hold on tight
and it’s a long hard road ahead
it’s fixing to linger
it’s fixing to stay
it’s fixing to bug me
‘til I’m up and away
I got woes and worries
to light the way
and it’s a long hard road ahead
I’ve got big ideas
and a train wreck in my head
I can remember
and I can be told
I was playing with fire
had my hand to the stove
I was breaking my heart
I was breaking the mold
I was breaking a sweat
standing out in the cold
keeping composure
I’m keeping it cool
even though I’m a senior
and I’m let out of school
there’s a parking lot
and the back lot rules
and it’s a long hard road ahead
what is a grown up
I’m lost in the chase
I’m starting to own up
I’m finding my pace
I know my heart
and I know my face
and it’s a long hard road ahead
let the grindstone go
put your nose to a rose instead
I can remember
and I can be told
that I’m playing with fire
got my hand to the stove
I was breaking my heart
I was breaking the mold
now I’m breaking a sweat
standing out in the cold
it doesn't get old
I come in the front door
I’m quiet at night
and if you are sleeping
I will leave out the light
I will crawl in close
and hold on tight
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9. |
Blue Moon Shine
03:55
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if you got a heart like mine
come on and let the blue moon shine
I know you got a heart like mine
if you got a broken wing
come on and let the blue moon sing
I know you got a broken wing
if you gotta walk away
come on and let the blue moon stay
I know you gotta walk away
if you gotta let me go
come on and let the blue moon show
I know you gotta let me go
if you gotta cry it out
come on and let the blue moon shout
I know you gotta cry it out
if you gotta heart like mine
come on and let the blue moon shine
I know you got a heart like mine
I know you got a heart like mine
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10. |
Freeze the Sailor
03:16
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freeze the sailor in a moment
be kind and choose the one he loves the most
how he wishes he could hold that ghost
how he wishes he was breathing
trees of winter standing still no more
the brittle season of the wind and storm
watching fields behind the country stores
he swore he’d last another winter
now I’m wishing I could fly
I would give it away
we used to watch him working on his boat
with shining skin we’d pass him on the road
kept his head down in a sailor’s clothes
an awesome sight when he was younger
he smoked and spoke
with just a slight breath left
with just the violins and coronets
ancient green and angled close with death
a knot in place of all the hardness
now I’m wishing I could fly
I would give it away
you know he didn’t touch the earth that day
he didn’t even touch the earth that day
I didn’t even touch the earth that day
freeze the sailor in a moment
be kind and choose the one he loved the best
how he wishes he could feel his chest
how he wishes he was breathing
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11. |
At the Water's Edge
03:10
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I broke the silence
and I broke the dawn
it’s just the wrong side of the writer
that you woke upon
I will be coming back
I will be coming strong
I held the pages
and I held the pen
I held the broken heart
that couldn’t seem to bleed again
I’m coming empty
but I’m coming in
I’ve been drinking at the water’s edge
prayed for thunder in the watershed
dreamed a bridge across the river bed
when it dried I bled
I pray for music
and I pray for words
I pray for anything but silence
in the mouths of birds
it’s more than I expect
it’s more than I deserve
maybe I have taken
more than mine
maybe I’m here taking shots
of someone else’s wine
my breath is coming back
gasping line by line
I’ve been drinking at the water’s edge
prayed for thunder in the watershed
dreamed a bridge across the river bed
when it dried I bled
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12. |
For When You Wake
03:31
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the screen door’s open
honey come on in
knock real soft
if you’re shaken
your heart is heavy
and it pulls you down
but mine is steady
and I’ll pull you out
you’re leaning hard
and you’re swinging low
you're falling fast
and learning slow
you fell down deep
in the wishing well
but these old wings
won’t fly themselves
hold my light
’til you find your own
hold my hand
’til you find your home
hold my gaze
in a moonlit sky
hold my breath
in a long goodnight
it’s all right
it’s all right
it’s all right if
all you’re feeling is the ache
it’s all right
it’s all right
I will shine a light
for when you wake
the screen door’s open
honey come on in
knock real soft
if you’re shaken
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13. |
Lay You Down Pretty
03:32
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lay you down pretty in a hole
in a hole
lay you down pretty in a hole
lay you down pretty in a hole
in a hole
lay you down pretty in a hole
lay me down pretty in a hole
lay your big brother in a hole
lay your good daddy in a hole
lay your strong mama in a hole
lay your sweet lover in a hole
lay your little baby in a hole
lay us all pretty in a hole
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Shawnee Kilgore Austin, Texas
"Shawnee Kilgore is to music as velvet gloves are to diamond cutters,” wrote James Hardesty, owner of the Green Frog Acoustic Tavern in Bellingham, WA. “She holds all this beauty in her hand, raw and untouched, then she chips away until it gleams in the light, holding on with a soft gentleness that she has perfected." ... more
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